Jay Johnson uses this song to reflect on some thoughtful yet sobering themes - the passage of time, fading memories, lost relationships, unrealised dreams, and a general sense of dissatisfaction with life. The opening lines about "thinking I've been drinking too much" and "blinking the world's sinking" establish a weary tone contemplating the speaker's own mortality and feeling disconnected from life's meaning. The poignant line "if you never love someone then you'll have no one to miss" suggests regret over not nurturing closer bonds while there was time. The wistful reminiscence of carefree youth "on a sunny day...in the month of may" walking a familiar path and dreaming big dreams implies those hopes didn't pan out. The blunt observation that "no one ever really stays" indicates struggling with impermanence and losing touch with people once close. As Jay reflects on getting older, there's sadness that life seems better in hindsight compared to current realities. Hoping the feeling "doesn't last" hints this could be a temporary depressive state, yet still emotionally potent. The mention of fair-weather friends who disappear in trying times indicates grappling with loneliness. The juxtaposition of admitting inner sadness while wearing a smile exposes the contrast between superficial appearances and psychological truths. The stark terminating imagery of finding the speaker "in a wreck/with a rope around my neck" is a rather alarming metaphor for profound despair that feels inescapable. Overall, JJ gives an introspective voice to genuine disenchantment - perhaps a midlife crisis processing the passing of youth, or pandemic-era malaise. While bordering on hopelessness, the candid expression itself suggests a search for understanding and meaning.