today marks one year sober. it honestly doesn't feel real. but it also feels so normal now. for the longest time i struggled with substance abuse, especially alcohol. it took me losing almost everything including friends, family and all that i hold dear to finally put the bottle down. i messed so many things up and still to this day deal with the repercussions of years of addiction. i still have anger, i still yell, i still run away, i still feel worthless, but i would rather feel and heal these things with a clear mind than one clouded in liquor. i wrote this song in the depths of my addiction and never intended to share it, but i find myself urgently needing the catharsis of sharing. i owe so many people an apology, but most of all my son and my partner. the strength and encouragement of my partner is something i am truly grateful for and without them in sight i surely would've been lost. i still am, but i am finding my way. slowly but surely. cheers